Serena van der Woodsen's Journal

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I don't know what to do now that I'm back. That sounds funny even to me, because I never had a problem knowing where I fit in here before. But now, that's all different. If it weren't for Eric, I wouldn't be here at all. It was better for me to stay away, after what I did. After what happened because of me. But I'm back now, and this is all I have to deal with. So I need to just get through this school year and make the best of it that I can. It'll be over soon, and then I can leave and just go, anywhere that I want to.

I know that Blair is angry with me for being gone, and she might be more angry that I'm back. Thing is, I can't blame her for it at all. And Nate...

I can't even think about it now. School's just started and I can't mess that up again. Not anymore. It has to be different this time. It just has to be.